I'm in a vicious cycle.
Circle, whatever you want to call it.
If I eat something, however small.
My head screams at me to overdose.
I'm terrified to eat.
Because of how it makes me feel.
And knowing what I'll do.
I know not eating is bad.
Especially with a history of anorexia.
But short term, well in my head.
It's not as bad as overdosing everyday.
Being totally off your head.
On sleeping pills.
And lots of vodka.
Every time you end up in A&E.
They just send you home anyway.
It's appalling.
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