Busted.

Pale, I'm still fucked on vodka and now they know. That'll be leave and fag breaks taken away :/ don't they yet that being here makes me want to get fucked up more than ever. Like seriously.

Alki.

You have no idea how much I want a bottle of vodka right now :/

Omg.

Fuck sake still in this god damn place :( sending me head west!

In for another week.

So much shits happened the past few days what a fucking idiot I am. Necking a whole bottle of vodka whilst I was on fag break walk back to the ward thinking they wouldn't notice at all. Remember one of staff come looking for me and he could tell straight away, walked me back in. Don't remember a thing after that. Been told I collapsed and then when they got me to my room I was bashing into everything so they put me in the lp room and I fully kicked off.

Assessment.

Hopefully I'll get discharged tomorrow.

Apologies

Sorry haven't post recently been on a psych ward.

Love all you guys x

Adelfi

Back here again fucking psych wards :(

Love all you from pt x

Death.

I hope this is the end.

Vodka and benzos.

Please work this time.

Darkness.

Die, die, die.

Not happy.

Arghhh.

 

Released Today.

Got discharged from the psych ward today.

Three times in the space of a month.

Not good.

Been in hospital since wednesday.

I wish I'd of died.

It was a serious suicide attempt.

I was so out of it.

Don't remember much.

Came back to a flat covered in blood.

I feel so hopeless.

And overwhelmed at the same time.

I wish things were better.

I'm trying so hard.