Anniversaries.

Today has been difficult.

These last few weeks have also.

Would like to say I've coped.

Quite well I think, especially today.

I wish I'd cried more though.

We all need a good cry.

I need it out my system.

Binge/Purge.

Pizza. Cookies.

Ice cream. Fizz.

Purging.

Staff = Awkward.

Stuffing Down.

I want to binge.

I want to purge.

Like never before.

Stuffing down emotions.

Over and over and over.

Till there's nothing left to feel.

Till everything's numb.

Coming To Terms.

Is this something I'll ever get used to.

Something I'll ever come to terms with.

Should I be able to.

Maybe not.

Upset.

I need to write this down.

Get it out of my head.

Fuck you people.

Fuck you all.

I'm crying.

For Frankie.

For Gemma.

For Emily.

For me.

Sense Of Control.

Back on this path again.

Controlling every damn thing.

Such a control freakkk.

Coffee, coke, apples.

See this last.