Hopefully this week will be better than the last.
Cut my neck and ligatured.
To the point of passing out.
It should scare me.
It doesn't though.
It felt so good.
Slipping away.
I want that feeling again.
Monday 3 November 2014
Passed Out.
Wednesday 29 October 2014
Chaos.
The past few days have been chaotic.
There has been positives though.
But I feel the negatives overshadow them.
Getting violent, punching D.
Purging mostly everything.
Cutting deeply.
At least I'm dissociated somewhat now.
The numbness is what I need.
I cannot tolerate much more.
Can't move soon enough!
Tuesday 14 October 2014
Cutting.
I'm cutting again.
This is bad.
Do I want to stop?
I'm not sure.
Could I if I tried?
Maybe not.
It's so addictive.
The blood.
The rush.
Everything.
Wednesday 8 October 2014
Placement.
So I got assessed today.
By the place in Nottingham.
Apparently it's likely to be a yes.
It's a high dependency unit.
Am I really that ill?
Sunday 28 September 2014
Anniversaries.
Saturday 27 September 2014
Stuffing Down.
Tuesday 23 September 2014
Coming To Terms.
Upset.
Sense Of Control.
Thursday 21 August 2014
Thursday 14 August 2014
Two Strips.
No Leave.
Through And Through.
Inpatient.
Friday 16 May 2014
Thursday 1 May 2014
Too Busy.
He's Coming.
Wednesday 30 April 2014
F & M.
Wednesday 16 April 2014
Snorting.
Thursday 10 April 2014
Like Death.
Tuesday 8 April 2014
Testing.
Monday 7 April 2014
Research Meds.
Sunday 6 April 2014
Ate Well.
Saturday 5 April 2014
Can't Go On.
Perception.
Friday 4 April 2014
Falling.
Thursday 3 April 2014
Bad Bulimic.
Tuesday 1 April 2014
Doctors.
Sunday 30 March 2014
Mother's Day.
Disgrace.
Saturday 29 March 2014
Breathing Techniques.
Tuesday 25 March 2014
Fearful Things.
Monday 24 March 2014
6 Months.
Tuesday 18 March 2014
Shifting Weight.
Sunday 16 March 2014
Stars.
Rocky.
Up & Down.
Thursday 6 March 2014
Dissociation.
Tuesday 18 February 2014
Sunday 9 February 2014
Black Hole.
Wednesday 5 February 2014
The Wrong Thing.
Close To Tears.
Tuesday 4 February 2014
Stuff My Emotions.
Damn Anxiety.
Monday 3 February 2014
Bulimic.
Sunday 2 February 2014
The Enemy.
Saturday 1 February 2014
Missing You.
Friday 31 January 2014
Medication Time.
Monday 27 January 2014
Change And Pronto.
Sunday 26 January 2014
No More.
Saturday 25 January 2014
Jealous.
Duvet Day.
Friday 24 January 2014
So Many, So Much.
Thursday 23 January 2014
To Escape.
Tuesday 21 January 2014
Prescribed.
Monday 20 January 2014
Shift This Weight.
Sunday 19 January 2014
Not A Legit Adult.
Complicated Life.
Saturday 18 January 2014
Leads To Another.
Wednesday 15 January 2014
Holidays.
Tuesday 14 January 2014
Freaking Idiot.
Monday 13 January 2014
"Bad" Food.
Positive Start.
Sunday 12 January 2014
Need To Sort It.
Two Down.
Saturday 11 January 2014
Heartless.
Time For Fun.
Thursday 9 January 2014
Succeeded.
Wednesday 8 January 2014
Anxiety Challenged.
Tuesday 7 January 2014
To The Core.
Prize Heffer.
Ridiculous Urges.
Monday 6 January 2014
Day One Of Healthy.
So today was my first day of healthy.
I had blueberries and pink lady apples.
Lentil soup and chicken & veg soup.
Then had some steamed vegetables.
All in all a fantastic start.
Bring on day two.