Monday 31 December 2012

Lonely NYE.


NYE sucks.
Drinking is no fun on your own.
Over the hols should be.

Feeling Possessed.


I feel fucking possessed.
Like the devils inside of me.
I'm on high alert.
Please make this end.
This is scaring me.

Sunday 23 December 2012

Falling Apart.

So nearly a years gone by.
Since that night.
The night I got raped.
Falling apart right now.
Trying to put on a brave face.
Don't want to ruin xmas.

Tuesday 18 December 2012

Realizations.

I've come to the realization.
That I can get through this.
And I believe so can you.
Please don't leave me.

Workout.


Was well in need of that workout (:

Sunday 16 December 2012

Empty Nothing.


I want to rid my soul.
Of all the diseases within.
Be free of the devil.
The monster that consumes me.
But if you drain me of that.
Will I just be a shell.
An empty nothing.


Saturday 15 December 2012

Trying Not To Stress.

Screwed up today.
I can't win either way.
Trying not to stress.

Monday 3 December 2012

Evil Inside Of Me.


There's so much evil inside of me.
I need to destroy it.
I'm such a terrible person.

Sunday 2 December 2012

Distraction From Food.


I need to distract myself from food.
I don't want to end up bingeing.
Well I do, but I don't.
Because if I do I'll end up feeling like shit.

Men.



There's no men I trust.
None whatsoever.
They all have some agenda.

Saturday 1 December 2012

It's Poison.


Food is bad,
It's evil, it's poison.
Why do I keep doing this to myself.
It's over.

Regret.


Last night I was a mess.
I regret that, it got completely out of hand.
I'm worried about seeing Kris again.
I was such a state.