Realizations.

And I realise now, due to her, 

Me and dad we were never going to have a positive relationship. 

But I don't think she intended for this to happen whatsoever. 

I think she just wanted me to be on her side. 

Saying negative things constantly about someone to a young child.

Is going to turn them again that person, its brainwashing.

Being asked from a young kid for marriage advice.

Telling me many a time she was thinking of divorce.

At too young an age I knew what that meant.

When I should have been carefree.

And not worrying about adult stuff.

I told her to leave him so many times.

It's really sad to think about.

Yes he did some awful things.

But there was good in him as well.

I'm glad I was able to see that before we lost him.

Why did I not see all this sooner?!