I wonder sometimes.
Is it really possible to recover fully.
From an eating disorder.
I feel like with everything else I can.
The cutting and overdosing.
I feel positive.
But with the bulimia, I can't stop it.
I've had messed up eating most my life.
In primary school I was skipping meals.
And had a terrible body image.
Bad enough at aged 8 to think seriously about chopping my fat off.
It breaks my heart.
Knowing I went through that and still am aged 20.
Having only got worse.
I should have been carefree and innocent.
Playing tag and dressing up dolls.
How many other young kids are on the path I ended up on.
Developing an eating disorder.
One that may kill them.
Without anyone noticing before its too late.