Meal Time.

Sitting down and eating a meal is a new concept to me.

Cannot tell you how stressful it is.

People who don't have food issues are so flaming lucky.

Annihilation.

I want to annihilate myself.

Cut myself deep.

Right through to the core.

Let the evil seep out.

In the river of blood.

I need to be exorcised.

Be free of the demons.

The very ones which haunt me.

Surge Of Energy.

Feeling a surge of energy within me.

An adrenaline rush, an angry one.

Something is gonna get smashed up.

My gaskets blowing.

Don't Want To Know Me.

It's funny how some people are.

They're only my friend when they get stuff in return.

Basically when I can't supply them with drugs.

They don't want to know me.

It's Going Down.

Oh my days.

I swear to god.

Shit is going down in my head.

Fuck off outta there already.

I'm fucking possessed.

Be quiet please. 

Another Episode?

Can feel an episode coming on.

I'm all worked up inside.

Something bad's gonna happen.

I just know it.

Closing In.

I can feel the life being sucked out of me.

Things are closing in. 

I feel suffocated.

Throwing In The Towel.

I don't know how I keep going on.

So exhausted and tired of fighting.

I need to throw in the towel.

Give up on life.

And go die.

I can't do that right now.

But waiting till then seems like forever.

Please Don't Go.

I want to hold on to you for dear life, literally.

Don't think I can actually face living without you.

Before we met I was a complete mess.

I'm still a mess but I'm come along so far.

And a lot of that was down to you.

Being there for me, always.

Just 'getting' me.

Believing in me.

Things Are Changing.

I've only been coping knowing she's coming home.

But now that has changed and she's not.

They're sending her to a different hospital.

Over 100 miles away.

For about a year.

I can't deal with this.

So Scared.

I am frickin' terrified.

Families.

Families, who'd have them.

Nuff said.

Deserving.

I feel like I deserve to be ill again.

On deaths door.

In intensive care.

Hooked up to machines.

What is wrong with me?

Euphoria.

Everything is oh so peaceful in my head.

So much love to getting high.

Euphoria has just come over me I feel so good.

I can't stop smiling (: