It's been over 4 months since you passed.
How we got to here I don't really know.
Somehow I've managed to survive.
Maybe I'm much stronger than I think.
Or maybe it's the fact that there is no emotion.
I want to feel so badly, I want to scream and cry.
Being able to do that would be some normality.
But no I can't, I think it's a protective factor.
How I manage to get through everything.
Dissociation coming to good use for once.
I do miss you dearly I really do.
And I just wish I could show you that.
I hope you know just how much I care.
I like to think that you are up there protecting us.
When I think about how caring you were.
You most probably are.