Lonely NYE.

NYE sucks.

Drinking is no fun on your own.

Over the hols should be.

Feeling Possessed.

I feel fucking possessed.

Like the devils inside of me.

I'm on high alert.

Please make this end.

This is scaring me.

Falling Apart.

So nearly a years gone by.

Since that night.

The night I got raped.

Falling apart right now.

Trying to put on a brave face.

Don't want to ruin xmas.

Realizations.

I've come to the realization.

That I can get through this.

And I believe so can you.

Please don't leave me.

Workout.

Was well in need of that workout (:

Empty Nothing.

I want to rid my soul.

Of all the diseases within.

Be free of the devil.

The monster that consumes me.

But if you drain me of that.

Will I just be a shell.

An empty nothing.

Trying Not To Stress.

Screwed up today.

I can't win either way.

Trying not to stress.

Evil Inside Of Me.

There's so much evil inside of me.

I need to destroy it.

I'm such a terrible person.

Distraction From Food.

I need to distract myself from food.

I don't want to end up bingeing.

Well I do, but I don't.

Because if I do I'll end up feeling like shit.

Men.

There's no men I trust.

None whatsoever.

They all have some agenda.

It's Poison.

Food is bad,

It's evil, it's poison.

Why do I keep doing this to myself.

It's over.

Regret.

Last night I was a mess.

I regret that, it got completely out of hand.

I'm worried about seeing Kris again.

I was such a state.