Exploding Heads.

I think I might have to get high.

These thoughts are overwhelming my mind.

My head is gonna explode.

Weight Off Of My Mind.

So I got most of my xmas present shopping done.

Now that's a weight off of my mind.

I can relax a bit now.

Tired Of Fighting.

So tired of fighting.

Fighting and distracting myself from the urge.

The urge to end my life, to die.

I've Changed.

I've changed.

And not for the better.

I feel like I'm falling.

Maybe into a depression.

I don't know.

All I do know is that I'm isolating myself.

This is always a sign.

A sign things are going downhill.

Destroy, Destroying, Destroy.

Destroy what's destroying you, before it does destroy you completely.

Money To Burn.

I got some money to burn.

Destroying Food.

Destroying food.

That's what it's come to.

It's taking over my mind.

And destroying me.

Home Treatment Team.

HTT were meant to come.

I don't expect they'll ever turn up.

I'm not holding my breathe.

What is the point it them.

Am I not worth helping.

Is that what it is.

Too Many People.

There are too many people in my head.

Leave me alone.

Let me relax, please.

Twinnie.

My twinnie got leave yesterday.

So I got to see my angel (:

Happy happy girl!

Wasn't Meant To Be.

It obviously wasn't meant to be.

Not sure how I feel on that.

Don't know what I feel about much at the moment.

I feel lost.

Is It?

Is it my time or is it not?

Nobody knows.

Least of all me.

Planned Admission.

They're talking about a planned admission.
Not sure how I feel about that.
I'm not well at all am I.

End It.

ED's Kill.

I'm such a vile pig.

Why don't you just KMN.

Breaking.

Feel as though I'm on the edge.
I'm slipping away.
Don't know how much longer I can take this.
I want support.
But tomorrow seems like a lifetime away.

Part Of Me Is Missing.

Without you, I'm lost.

A big part of me is missing.

It makes me sad that I can't do anything to help you.

I just hope you get out soon.

How much longer I can go on without you.

I don't know.

I want you back.

In Memory Of You.

I hope you know we had a meal in memory of you.

We all love and miss you dear John.

I will never ever forget you.

Don't Give Up.

You're Killing Me.

Food, food, food.

Please get out of my head.

You're killing me.

Yes I know.

Another day.

Three more drips.

When will it end.

It's my fault yes I know.

Dripping Away.

I'm stuck all day.

And I'm stuck all night.

Drip drip dripping.

Away I go.

So I Did It.

So I ended up in the general. 

Still here.

Don't remember much about it.

I've just been changed wards.

That scares me a lot.

They don't know me.

Or understand.

I'll probs end up self discharging, tomorrow. 

I'm so angry.

Me Ringing You.

What is the point in me ringing you? 

I mean really.

There isn't you never rang back.

I'm doing what I'm supposed to do.

Ringing you for support when I feel like doing something.

What do I get back off of you?

I'll tell you what, nothing.

You are meant to be my SW.

Goddammit do your job.