Hope You Rest Peacefully.

I'm  sorry that you've passed John.

You were such a caring decent honest man.

Hard to come by these days.

I'm hurting inside, I care about you so much.

Hope you rest peacefully <3

Max Twice.

Once a fortnight.

This is from now on.

Maximum twice.

Rather than like every other day.

Gross.

Don't ever want to eat anything again.

I feel so vile.

And disgusting.

Addiction.

I hate this addiction.

It's driving me insane.

But I can't stop, not on my own.

Skinnier.

Workout and diet in order.

I will be skinnier by christmas.

Without a doubt.

Benzos.

Wow it's no wonder 30mg Diazepam didn't touch me.

Apparently it's equivalent to 3mg Lorazepam.

Is it really safe to cut down.

That low, that quick.

I take 10mg Lorazepam most days.

20mg sometimes.

Desperate Hope.

Hopefully desperate.

Or desperately hopeful.

Which am I?

Conflicting Information.

Conflicting information.

Bouncing back and forth.

They just pick up on the negatives.

And just ignore the positives.

Then wonder why you have such low self-esteem.

A bit of praise wouldn't go a miss.

Every now and then.

Apparently I Look Like I OD.

You know things are bad.

When your mental health worker thinks you've overdosed.

Because you look and sound so terrible.

Even though you're not under the influence of anything.

Food.

It's crazy how food can make you feel.

So fucking disgusting.