A&E Psychs.

The psychs are absolute twats.

Nuff said for now.

Ignorant Bastard.

Some people are, I can't think of the word.

Ignorant, thats it.

But they make my blood boil.

They make me lose it.

Why do people post that they want to die.

Errr, maybe because they need support and help.

Idiot.

Escaping Reality.

Getting drunk and pilled up at 9am is probably quite a record.

A stupid one at that.

I've only been up properly since 8am.

Can't even last a hour in reality how pathetic.

Vampires, Again.

The vampires have come back.

Screaming and yelling.

MH worker was useless about my suicide plan.

Just tell your social worker.

Struggling so much right now.

High, OD.

I just want to overdose, again.

Think I may wait till tomorrow.

Just get rather high today.

It's a sad life.

They've Gone.

My Tinks and the KITTEHS ♥

They've been rehomed.

Heartbroken, that's what I am.

Only had her for about a month.

But I loved her too bits.

Was in floods of tears when they took her.

Your gone but not forgotten.

Tinks And Her KITTEHS ♥

Tinks and her KITTEHS ♥

Bad News.

My faery friend is in hospital.

Sad me, really hope she's okay.

I love her so so much.

Crisis Smisis.

Why the fuck do I ever ring crisis team.

I mean really, they just make me more mad.

And more likely to do something stupid.

Which just goes against the whole point of ringing them.

Arrghhh, they really aggrivate me.

High Again.

Getting high again.

That's all my life is at the moment.

Me being an absolute wreck head.

Its the only way I can deal with life right now.

At group I was high, ooopsies.

It's against the rules.

But I weren't the only one.

And it weren't too obvious I don't think.

Only the other junkie picked up on it.

So Very Tired.

It's been a rather emotional exhausting day.

I just want to get away from it all.

Get high in other words.

I've got my vol work interview tomorrow.

And group, not looking forward to that.

I don't want to leave Tinks for the day.

All alone with her newborns.

It seems unfair, I should be there.

Considering everything.

I hope I can sleep.

KITTEHS ♥

Tinks has just had KITTEHS ♥ 

The Plan.

Evening of 28th September.

Train to Blackpool South Beach.

Get high and drunk as fuck.

Swim as far as I can out.

Try my best not to let anyone find me.

Thats my plan.

Plots.

Ended up staying in hosptial last night.

Fuck all that helped.

Now I've got plans to end my life.

Sooner the better.